I'm Still Alive

(Drafted some time after Raya I guess)

Hello, assalamualaikum.

It’s been a longggg while, and I doubt anyone’s here to read this nor even blogging these days. But whatever, I just wanna post this up. To tell you that I’m still alive.

Yeah baby, I will survive!!

That’s what I plan to say. So I said it, but it just doesn’t feel right. Alhamdulillah, we passed our Ramadhan and had a blast Raya, and now we’re in August. Give yourself a pat in the back for making this far without breaking into pieces nor die in the process. Hey, really now, I know you thought of death once in a while but come on, have some faith in yourself. Allah is always there for us.

Since I couldn’t bring myself to update this blog because the lack of internet, I wrote a diary. Yes, Nadia writes in a freaking diary book.

Once in a while, I’d flip through my past writings… And now that I think about it, this year was a wreck so far. My happy entries were like… only a very small few. Most of ‘em are full of me sighing, crying, whining, feeling mad… I don’t know, 2014 is cruel.

Not enough with family problems, I have to deal with scary, sarcastic teachers. Like what???? Maybe I didn’t score well in exams, but making that as a reason to treat me harshly is just not fair. I may come out as someone who badmouths my teachers but hey, get in my shoes for a bit. And then I’ll ask, “Do you feel me?”

I don’t even know how people could be angry and mad for like, every freaking day of the week. Always having a frown and all. Well maybe I’m wrong for most of the things, I apologize. But I just think that life is very unfair, and don’t remind me that it’s already unfair as it is.

Well I guess that is all. Everyone, chin up to face more obstacles. This is pretty much just the beginning. Goodluck, fighting!!

Byeom~