A Little Positivity

Hello there, assalamualaikum.

Finally, we’re in October!! Cheers to everyone because we’ve made it this far! Come on, chin up, it’s almost the end of the year, and things will be over before you know it!

I was actually trying to create a positivity in myself, and others. Welp, these days I’ve been terribly, seriously depressed. Sometimes I feel like I lost the muse towards the things I used to love. But hey, we can’t stay like this! At least I don’t want to. Get up, make a change. Or at least cheer yourself up with something that you’re happy about!

You love Kpop? Sure, listen to your fave groups is the answer! (Or dive in into new shit, like Block B’s songs or BTS’s songs, or maybe just listen to something you don’t know of? Hyuna’s Red is good though. Don’t watch the MV, listen to the audio heheh)
Anime/manga is your thing? Then what are you waiting for? Watch an episode! Read a chapter! (Personally I’d recommend Sket Dance or Gintama to cheer you up. Watch any episode and you’ll be laughing before you know it!)
Games are your haven? Sure, fine, play it! (I’m a fan of otome games and visual novels bruh)
Anything else? Languages? Science? Maths? Do anything, anything at all, to make you happy.

If nothing else works, take a breath, ambil wuduk, calm down. Istighfar, and remember, somebody out there cares. I care.

“Blergh, you know nothing about me. You’re just a 16 year old kid who doesn’t know the fuck I’m experiencing”.

Of course I don’t, but you think I have no life eh? Come on, I’m trying to create some positivity. 

You’re not as bad as you think. Not even as pathetic as you thought! Sometimes the evil thoughts creep in, right? Insecurities. Worries. And all those little shit. But all of it depends on YOU. Don’t let that shitty thoughts creep in. If it does, tell me, and I’m gonna pull you out right through that drowning surface.

Ah, and the worries of people who’s gonna sit for exams. Finals, mid terms, ….and you know that ‘exam by the end of the year before you finish high school’. If you haven’t studied yet, please do so and stop worrying. If you already did, wow, congrats! Great job! Seriously, don’t worry too much. Even if you don't feel like studying, that's perfectly fine. You are a human, you body needs rest. Your emotions need rest. Your soul needs rest, and some love. (from me heheh)

People these days just worry and exhaust themselves for reasons that they can absolutely settle.

It’s a matter of time, but things will get better.

Come on, we’re in October already. Look back, and do you see? You’ve walked this far. Wow. Thank you, for keeping yourself together and staying strong. I know you’re broken sometimes, but everything will be okay.

You may have read tons of posts like this, and please keep in mind, even positive people are breaking deep inside their hearts. But they refuse to give in.

Don’t even fucking think of straining and forcing yourselves to do the shit you hate.

If you hate it, leave it be. Don’t wanna be scolded for not doing it? Then get your ass moving and do it. Don't whine, please, because that is a small weakness. Let's start by letting it out on Twitter first and do it, just a littleeee bit. Am I confusing you? Sorry but I’m confused too haha.

The thing is, nobody is going to do anything for your life. All they would do, like me, would pity, give you encouragement. We can’t change your life, and I’m terribly sorry about that. I seriously wish I can change my life too you know. I don’t want to be in science stream…. That’s just what I think these days.

Keep a diary, if you think nobody understands you. Make a diary blog, if writing is a hassle. Talk to someone. Nothing works? Talk to Allah. And believe. If you don’t know what’s bothering you, make a list of things you’re happy about and things you’re sad about. And one by one… you’ll know you can fix things after all. I believe in you!

Do you dream of marrying an idol? Dream of going to some country to escape? Dream of living with your bestfriend to get rid of all the shitty happenings in your home? It’s okay to dream. It’s okay. Everything’s gonna be fine.

I guess that’s enough rant and some fail encouragement. Stay strong and feel better soon, everyone. Allah loves you, some of your true friends love you, and I love you because you’ve came by at least once or twice, saying ‘hello’ to me sometimes or just random ‘bye’ at school. Or dropping by to read this. Everything means a LOT to me.

My friends are busy too, most of them are exhausted too. So it’s unfair to say that I’m the most exhausted person in the whole galaxy. Unfair bruh, because Allah tests us all.

Chin up and have a great day, you wonderful person! Be happy!

Cheers to a brighter future, and thanks for reading! Byeom~