Hello, assalammualaikum.
Alhamdulillah, we’ve made it this far. Long
time no see! It’s already the 16th of Ramadhan today. I hope
everyone is blessed with joy, happiness, gratefulness and strength in this
precious month. Semoga kita semua dapat istiqamah dalam beribadah dan dapat
improve ibadah kita, insyaa-Allah, amin.
It’s been a long, rough ride for me. I’m
just happy that I’m here today. I’m actually content and that says a lot.
Things are still tough, of course, but things are getting better because you
grow stronger, you know? Some things don’t go according to plan and some things
happen when you least expect them to. You lose some, you win some. That’s the
beauty of life, I guess?
Whatever it is, if you’re faced with trials
and you think that it’s getting too hard to live, I hope you find it in you to
be grateful that Allah SWT is testing you because He loves you and remembers
you. I think we should be more scared if we’re not tested at all. And in this
month of barakah*, never forget to pray a lot and ask for forgiveness.
And my favourite quote at the moment is,
“Grow through what you go through.”
Aight? ;)
I wanted to tell a lot of things, actually.
So much has happened during my short semester in IUKL, haha. Yes, my first
semester in a private university is a short semester, because I got in during
March. I’ll post up something about the Induction Week later (we call it “Induction”
instead of “Orientation” just because~).
I found some friends, and then I found
love. And I experienced so many things, I actually think that “there’s a first
time for everything” fits my situation perfectly there. I learn a lot about
life, studies, people, and most of all… I think I actually discover more sides
of myself. Things that I just knew I’m capable of, things that I just knew I am
actually a fan of, and… knowing that my negative side has somehow taken over my
positive self, omg? I’m glad I have more positive people on my side that could
bring me back on track.
But haha. Can't help feeling lonely sometimes yknow n_n
While I know that I’m odd and chaotic in a
lot of ways, I discovered that some people just cannot accept that. When I was
in school, with the Geng Tengah and people in class, I was fine because I was
always minding my own business and almost all of my friends had embraced the
fact that I’m quite different from them and I actually don’t give a crap about
what they think. I mean, everyone has different personalities, right? Just so
happen that I’m this little chaotic person that likes to do things in a rush,
etc.
…God, I should have gotten over this thing
longgg ago and now I’m still mentioning it. Ugh. Sorry but I’m just suddenly
reminded of something. I should just forgive and forget this, seriously.
Anyway. My point is that, I was too
comfortable when I was in school that I forgot some people just cannot accept
my ways. Kids and friends alike, always remember that everyone is different.
If you wanna help, ask if they need help because not everyone wants help. I
wanted to make a post on “embracing the differences in people” but I’ll save
that for when I’m motivated, haha.
But so far, Alhamdulillah, studying here
has been a-okay. I’m on my short sem break so I don’t want to remember any bad
things. I’m just gonna focus on doing my best on the next sem because I don’t
think I’ve done my best in the recent sem, tsk tsk. It’s just weird for me that
I suddenly am given holidays with nothing to do so I’m awkwardly passing each
day with lots of sleeps and naps. I’m trying my best to be productive by typing
a post for this blog though, haha.
As for the ‘love’ I’ve found… Let’s keep it
platonic, shall we? I don’t want to promise anything. Sometimes my heart is
ripped to pieces but sometimes it soars so high with happiness. But most of the
time I’m happy. I try to be. At least I want to believe that I try my best in
relationships, even in friendships. Anything else… Let’s just say that it
depends on the other person.
Whew. This took a lot out of me. I’m not
even sure if anyone reads this??? But thank you if you do! I hope you have a
good day and see yaaaa in the next post if I have any, haha. I’m just kinda
paranoid about posting things nowadays because I don’t quite feel like exposing
myself lol can you believe I said this???
Anyway. Thank you so much for reading and I
hope yall have a good Ramadhan, yeah? See you! Byeom~ <3
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