Unchained.

Hello, assalammualaikum.

It's been a very, very, very long journey. And alhamdulillah, I'm almost there. I can finally breathe.

Only a few days left, then I'm free of school. Ahhh, finally. I still can't sit back and relax like my friends do, in which most of them have finished. We're done with our Biology exams yesterday and, welp, we celebrated with some photos and that's pretty much it.

The ED students (engineering drawing students, in case you're curious) will be done tomorrow. And I'm here, being guilty of not studying haha.

I love how my friends encourage me like, "Alah, ICT je pun. Nadia boleh!". I love you guys, really. I hope this means that you guys believe in me instead of saying that ICT is easy, or else it'll have a backwards effect on me. Haha.

I still can't find myself to truly relax and calm down, but I wanna list down the things I plan to do, the stuff I wanna watch, the games I wanna play, the fictions I wanna write, and the love I have to give. Haha. I've been neglecting my baby Kuning so much, it hurts. I miss him T____T

As I said before, I really am a loser when it comes to love. I want to do things right just this once but still, I'm messing up with a guy or two then my heart's ruined. I don't even know what I want. Haha.

Being in a relationship is hard, not being in a relationship is just as hard. Being loved, loving people.... blah, it takes too much out of me. I'm a difficult person to deal with and I'm totally surprised people actually love me in the end. Haha.

Allahu. I'm exhausted. I can't think straight.

I want to be free, unchained, and yet I don't want you to let go. I want you to love me, and yet I don't want you to own me. It's hard. I'm not talking about him, but I'm talking about you. I don't even know who owns my heart anymore.......... ugh.

Ha. I'm tired. Can we not fall in love?

Byeom.