Hello.
Just a short update today.
I was not in my best mood the past week. I wasn't in my best form.
I couldn't... I just, can't.
I wanted to just, delete and backspace or something.
I feel like there's no answer.
Why does some people treat you badly all of a sudden, palau you all of a sudden, never tell you why, and just, be mean to you all of a sudden? Aren't you supposed to be bestfriends with the person? What happened?
You're lucky, to have everyone around you to ask if you're okay when you're sick. To have people go all around you, all over you to ask if you're fine with life. What about me? What about someone like me?
And.
Please. Just stop. Stop that.
Stop playing with what's mine. I know, not mine to begin with but still. Just. Stop that.
I'm just, confused. I have never been tortured with feelings like this.
I am the light for my friends. I'm shining brighter than I should. Please just, don't dim my light. Stay away and just, don't. My light, my life, my love, mine, whatever's mine. Stay away.
Also, with this post I hope that my bad memories, my worst expectations, my scary dreams, my fearful nightmares, my endless black holes of hopelessness and plain state of mind are all vanished. One by one.
I wanna be a better Nadia. This week had taught me that, life aren't always so full of colours. And with that, I'm hoping for the best. I'll be the best. And I'll try. Even if it hurts.
You wanna see me break? I'll show you some broken moments... of yours. For messing up with my life.
Byeom.
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