Friendship And Everything In Between.

Hello, assalamualaikum.

I'm gonna skip that "oh it's been a while" thingy, and go straight to my point. My life, and the lessons in it. 2014 had been tough so far, really. You just have to agree. But through it all, you have to take some time to reflect on yourself. I did, and as I see it, I hurt a lot of feelings in the process of living this year.

First of all, I'm truly sorry to my friends. This year I... am an emotional wreck. Remember what my resolution was? "To stop being emotional". Well, I didn't actually like, cry or anything. I was mostly mad, angry at everythinggg. I'm always like this but it's gotten worst this year, so I'm really sorry. I'm not sure if I'm gonna stop being like this anytime soon.

And I'm sorry if I wasn't there for you when you needed me. Heck, now I'm not even on Twitter much. I'm like "go away dont talk to me" most of the time now. I don't know, I just feel like being alone. I love my friends, like, YES HAVE ALL MY LOVE I'LL PUT YOU ABOVE MY CRUSH BECAUSE I DON'T HAVE ANY!!! but you know what I'm saying right? Sorry la kalau aku termarah korang tetiba... I didn't mean to ;;; And gheis, thanks for always being there for me no matter how I treat you. I love you guys, please don't forget that.

Now let's talk about how we treat each other. I've been observing. If you know me well, you'll know that I'm annoyed by a lot of things, and I observe well like everyone does. Ummm, you see, if your friend was talking or telling her story or maybe secrets to you, would you just reply with a nod or and "Ohh"? That's... kinda rude. I mean, she took time to tell her story, you should be more aware of it. I know you have your own problems, but at least tunjuk la yang anda berminat dengan cerita dia. I know, aku pun pentingkan diri jugak. I'm telling you this as a reflection to myself, so that people won't lose their friendship, ever. And the distance between us is growing gradually, and it hurts. Man, it does. And then how I am annoyed at your behaviours.... If it's not clear to you yet, memang aku banyak tak puas hati hahaha but I'm sorry! Aku tak patut rasa camtu, korang kan kawan aku. Tapi kalau korang tahu apa yang aku tak suka tu then tolong lah ubah, aku pun akan try jadi a better Nadi ^^

I'm grateful to have you gheis. Not just GengTengah, but also classmates and the people here. Yes I've been selfish, that's why I'm sorry!! I don't know, I've been feeling guilty but still.... hah, I'm such a wreck yes I know.

I'll try my best to do everything now. I've been tired, but I'll make this as my strength. Yes we're all tired and that's why I shouldn't be like this I guess.

Keep up the good work guys, you're stronger than you thought you are. Fighting!!!
And bye~